February 2012
9 posts
had a really good work out day today, and then ate really well UNTIL I ate some pretzels and a healthy poptart thing. I don’t know how to beat cravings with carrots or celery or shit like that. Day by day though, Mel. Day by day.
I also broke down and cried today because I kept remembering things like his hands and his kisses and how much he loved me. In particular, this time we watched...
currently: eating carrots, watching the office, and reading The Graduate. pretty freaking content BESIDES the fact that I want to be eating pretzels and everything else unhealthy.
This is Day 1 of my Scarsdale Diet-lets see if I can do it! (I think I can, I think I can!)
I’m talking with Brock later about what he said to me the other day. It was not OK and I don’t really want to...
so I haven’t done really much to make myself happy. I feel like I’ve been falling into my old habits. I do miss Drew and I realize it would just make everything easier if he were here with me. I don’t miss him all day though which is good, I miss him when I get home and when I’m alone in my room. Of course when I’m alone, but I really do miss him. I need to continue...
I just totally lamed out and called drew. I feel like an idiot and could tell he was annoyed-but I’m sorry, I love him. I could think about stupid boys but at the end of the day I want drew’s arms around me. I know that sounds wicked cliche, and I’m glad no one is reading this because they would probably think I was mad stupid. I love him, I do. There is a reason why I think of...
also, follow blogs that will teach you about the world. learn about things. Spend less time looking at pictures of hot guys and material things and learn about life and what is around you. That’s why they created the internet anyway, right?
well, here goes nothing
I just took a break from my boyfriend of 5 years today. Whoa. I’ve been unhappy and crying for so long, it feels good to finally take a step back and see what was going on. It’s not that I don’t love him its the fact that I just keep getting distracted by other people in my life-people that aren’t good people, things that aren’t good things. I really need to focus on...
